Put Aside the Distractions.
You’d think I had ADD with the amount of time it honestly takes me to finish one of these posts. And it’s not active time either, it’s time I spend trying to figure out what to say that leads to a rabbit hole of distractions that I impose on myself. I get myself worked up over one thought, or even just curious about some obscure thought unrelated to The Roasted Mind and go searching the internet for answers. The worst part is that once I find my answers I’m unsatisfied with just one opinion on the subject and go looking for more or even THE SAME answer but from a different person. You’d seriously think I have ADD with the amount of time it takes.
I’m unfortunately no stranger to attempting to rid myself of distractions, always trying different approaches to become my most productive version. I’ve tried deleting social media, deleting YouTube, placing limits on my cellphone, carrying a book or notebook around, trying a new routine regiment, etc etc. I try and try and try, but just get too bored with the lack of distractions available to me. I definitely rewired my brain to think this way at one point, but funny enough I don’t see this as a total negative. I chop this up as curiosity, being incredibly interested in this or that and not allowing myself to settle until I receive an answer. Kind of sounds like a nicer way of putting ADD haha, but that’s who I’ve been for a while now; curious without fail of achieving. A bit ironic, no?
One of my biggest examples of being too distracted to finish a goal is my attempt (or, multiple attempts) at learning Japanese. I tried last year on and off to take learning the language seriously, and it kicked off even harder in the weeks before my trip to Japan. I remember being so excited having learned katakana and hiragana and getting to see that in effect during my trip with those “aaaahhhh” moments! Then, when I came back to the states, my dedication hit a steep decline. I’d try to push myself to study, but instead I’d be distracted with my phone, or maybe I’d be distracted with some of the other things I wanted to do like exercise, practice music, play a video game, etc. I allowed myself to be so unfocused that I pretty much forgot 50% of the Japanese I learned. It’s sad. It makes me sad.
I’m completely aware of this habit I constantly try to break, so what’s taking me so long? How will I ever open up my little cafe in Japan if I don’t put my all into getting rid of distraction? Is that idea waaaaayyy too farfetched?
Thanks,
Alex.
This photo makes me so happy for some reason. Mistakenly taken during a 6am solo photoshoot with photos I ended up deleting, there is nothing special about this photo. But I oddly enjoy it, I enjoy the background this image provides in terms of story. Am I setting up or tearing down? Am I satisfied in what I shot or just ambitious for what I will shoot? The focus is perfectly attached to my sleeve and the sun behind it, yet nothing else is completely blurred out. It gives me a nostalgic feeling. Almost like I’m logging off for the final time.
